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Jun. 30th, 2003 04:46 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
urocyonSome good news, for me at least. This evening I broached the subject of paying my parents back in installments for getting my car fixed after it didn't pass state inspection, and my dad told me not to worry about it. That was a huge relief, and I really appreciated it--and let them know it! It had several smallish problems, but they added up to a worse repair bill than I'd expected.
Oh--barring catastrophe, I'll finally be able to book my tickets after the turn of the month. *g* (I have to wait for my July deposit to come through, as stressed as my credit cards are, particularly after the last trip. Plastic can be evil, even when one tries to use it wisely.) Next month's budget looks to be leaner still, but, to state the obvious yet again, it's only temporary. Given the timing of the trip--leaving right at the end of the month--I'll likely need to borrow spending money before I leave to last a couple of days, but that can be paid off easily after the beginning of the month. And thank goodness for ATMs when travelling. :)
Entries lie this may make me sound as if I'm overly materialistic/concerned with money; I certainly hope I haven't been coming across that way. My concerns seem to stem more from an interpretation of hierarchy of needs: when I'm chronically short on money, or anything else, so that I feel insecure, it distracts me from more "important" things. Poor expression of my thoughts on the matter, no doubt, but I'll blame being tired and having taken some Tramadol for a strange foot and ankle pain. ;)
On a note related to the travelling, here is a slight followup to a previous post. I was tending to get a bit insecure, and feel like maybe the person in question didn't really want to talk to me. (Ah, more joys of social anxiety cropping up unexpectedly.) At any rate, I am capable of enough rational thought to notice that he seems extremely glad to speak with me when he does so. Not long after that original post, it struck me that the pattern of contact is likely healthier than what I'd been accustomed to dealing with somewhat recently. He does not seem to need constant validation and reassurance. He doesn't expect me to be the only one to accommodate the time difference and act as some sort of emotional crutch at work every day--a point my mother made, as the ex did seem to expect me to talk to him (read: frequently listen to his petty work-related problems) at work most days, then also evenings. Quote: "You hardly slept for six months there!" This guy seems far more stable overall, thank goodness, or I'd have run immediately. I am taking it as a sign of lack of serious insecurity, and not hearing from him for days on end only bothers me now in that I want to talk to him, damnit! *g* Doing so leaves me feeling good, as it should.
Oh--barring catastrophe, I'll finally be able to book my tickets after the turn of the month. *g* (I have to wait for my July deposit to come through, as stressed as my credit cards are, particularly after the last trip. Plastic can be evil, even when one tries to use it wisely.) Next month's budget looks to be leaner still, but, to state the obvious yet again, it's only temporary. Given the timing of the trip--leaving right at the end of the month--I'll likely need to borrow spending money before I leave to last a couple of days, but that can be paid off easily after the beginning of the month. And thank goodness for ATMs when travelling. :)
Entries lie this may make me sound as if I'm overly materialistic/concerned with money; I certainly hope I haven't been coming across that way. My concerns seem to stem more from an interpretation of hierarchy of needs: when I'm chronically short on money, or anything else, so that I feel insecure, it distracts me from more "important" things. Poor expression of my thoughts on the matter, no doubt, but I'll blame being tired and having taken some Tramadol for a strange foot and ankle pain. ;)
On a note related to the travelling, here is a slight followup to a previous post. I was tending to get a bit insecure, and feel like maybe the person in question didn't really want to talk to me. (Ah, more joys of social anxiety cropping up unexpectedly.) At any rate, I am capable of enough rational thought to notice that he seems extremely glad to speak with me when he does so. Not long after that original post, it struck me that the pattern of contact is likely healthier than what I'd been accustomed to dealing with somewhat recently. He does not seem to need constant validation and reassurance. He doesn't expect me to be the only one to accommodate the time difference and act as some sort of emotional crutch at work every day--a point my mother made, as the ex did seem to expect me to talk to him (read: frequently listen to his petty work-related problems) at work most days, then also evenings. Quote: "You hardly slept for six months there!" This guy seems far more stable overall, thank goodness, or I'd have run immediately. I am taking it as a sign of lack of serious insecurity, and not hearing from him for days on end only bothers me now in that I want to talk to him, damnit! *g* Doing so leaves me feeling good, as it should.
