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Apr. 29th, 2003 06:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
urocyonBarry's going home within the next couple of days. We're supposed to get together tomorrow/this afternoon, after he finishes an exam. I was irritated enough over barely hearing a word from him in days that I just didn't feel like going to any trouble at all to meet him earlier tonight--I thought maybe things would look better tomorrow, but his company was certainly not worth the aggravation tonight. Yeah, when he wants to go out almost immediately it's "Hey sexy" (which annoyed me too, tonight), and not a word about making tentative plans and then not getting in touch at all. I don't think I expect that much, but I do expect people not to leave me hanging and then ignore that they've done so, under stress or no. I'm not sure if I'll be seeing Barry over the summer at all, even though he only lives in Bluefield; he hasn't said a word about it so far, and I don't want to be the one to bring it up. *shrug* It's been fun, other than the past week. :) Now I think I'm getting tired of the general mess, anyway. I guess it only makes sense to be willing to put up with less out of someone you're just going out with for the purpose of getting out and having a bit of fun, really.
Speaking of summer, I've been avoiding it, but it does look like the most straightforward way to set aside enough more money for the CCDE trip is to cut down on or give up smoking. ASAP. I've been meaning to do this anyway, almost quit before Christmas but had a little setback (I suppose one could call it that). By quick estimation, I'm wasting close to $200 a month, which has been bothering me for some time--to put it mildly. My other expenditures are pretty reasonable, and not vulnerable to that much shuffling, unfortunately...perhaps an extra $50-60/month can be scrimped by making myself uncomfortable. Ah well, let's hope this works as a motivating factor.
I'm sure something will work out; it had better. :) With further conversation, the terms have been tentatively upgraded to, as he put it, "Yes, we live one hell of a way from each other. We like each other and neither of us are in a relationship, let us have fun and further commitments as agreed" (sounded fair to me). I can still hardly believe the quick progression, but am I complaining? (No, other than some practical minutiae like paying for plane tickets, I'm wishing it were bumped forward a couple of months!)
And I occasionally wonder if something is wrong with me because I'm not worrying... *sigh*
Speaking of summer, I've been avoiding it, but it does look like the most straightforward way to set aside enough more money for the CCDE trip is to cut down on or give up smoking. ASAP. I've been meaning to do this anyway, almost quit before Christmas but had a little setback (I suppose one could call it that). By quick estimation, I'm wasting close to $200 a month, which has been bothering me for some time--to put it mildly. My other expenditures are pretty reasonable, and not vulnerable to that much shuffling, unfortunately...perhaps an extra $50-60/month can be scrimped by making myself uncomfortable. Ah well, let's hope this works as a motivating factor.
I'm sure something will work out; it had better. :) With further conversation, the terms have been tentatively upgraded to, as he put it, "Yes, we live one hell of a way from each other. We like each other and neither of us are in a relationship, let us have fun and further commitments as agreed" (sounded fair to me). I can still hardly believe the quick progression, but am I complaining? (No, other than some practical minutiae like paying for plane tickets, I'm wishing it were bumped forward a couple of months!)
And I occasionally wonder if something is wrong with me because I'm not worrying... *sigh*
