stupid stupid stupid

[urocyon]

I just did something so mind-numbingly stupid that I can barely believe it. Against my better judgment, I honored a half-joking request from someone I've been seeing to take off some clothing in front of the webcam. That was rather tacky, but the idiotic bit was forgetting that it's mirrored on another site. Sure, I don't fire up the cam that often anymore, but I'm hardly an exhibitionist--how could I forget this? I just really hope nobody was paying attention to that IRC channel webcam page; otherwise, I guess I'll just have to hope they enjoyed the show. :/

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[alchemi.livejournal.com]

And your loyal friends list wasn't invited?

It's pretty late. It's certainly possible someone saw, but probably not many, and probably no one you know. Unless the boy in question told his friends of his intentions a la American Pie, in which case you are screwed.

Then again - nudity is good and natural. I think being ashamed is a sad thing. Not to say I wouldn't be, but that would be out of insecurity rather than a belief that nudity is inappropriate.

[urocyon-c.livejournal.com]

This is actually a reasonably close group (small IRC network, mainly from a Usenet group or two), a number of whom I've met but don't know well in person--this helped play on my insecurity. It didn't even occur to me to worry about the intended viewer and American Pie-like behavior...thanks for mentioning it. ;) (Am still not concerned about that, or much else related, really; what I posted came out of the initial reaction, which mostly blew over quickly.)

Yes, insecurity is my problem there. Both the initial body-image insecurity and further fear of being thought stupid (though I do recognise that I'm, by far, the harshest one on that issue among many). Even when it's countered rationally, it's difficult to avoid/control the initial flareup. Despite countering it, it also wants to linger long enough to make me not particularly look forward to going on IRC later. :) Which is annoying in its own right.

[do-not-lick.livejournal.com]

GIF! :)

Why am I not surprised you said that? :P

[urocyon-c.livejournal.com]

This is the only webcam capture I'm likely to show you, mister. :)

[do-not-lick.livejournal.com]

Ooh baby! Take off your glasses!