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Sep. 10th, 2003 06:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
urocyonI'm feeling better after a long talk with a friend earlier tonight. (One would hope it was earlier, considering it's almost 5:30 a.m. as I'm writing this.) She helped clarify some things and gently made it obvious how far out of proportion I've managed to blow some difficulties. Yes, I'll readily admit I'm excitable at the best of times. :) (Cue Warren Zevon's "Excitable Boy". Or maybe not. *g*)
I do have a problem with throwing up artificial obstacles, especially when things seem important and perhaps a mite intimidating. Even when I can see that there are only so many courses of action, none of them generally so complicated, I can still manage to make things complicated. Persisting in doing this does not seem too wise. Nor does throwing away energy and making myself unhappy, worrying about things which even strike me as silly as I'm doing it. I did recognise these things already, but having someone tactfully point them out helped more than I'd have thought. Maybe it's as simple as reinforcement that my concerns are not, in fact, based in reality--if that makes any sense. I don't generally have trouble with distinguishing that sort of thing, but one does begin to wonder at times, under the influence of too much brooding. At any rate, she left me feeling much better.
Oh yes, on an unrelated note, Barry is back in town. I declined an invitation to go out last weekend. I must admit that it wasn't the easiest decision; I may be committed elsewhere, but I've been feeling a bit lonely, and he was good company in a strictly-for-fun sort of way. (The rather frequent handing-out-of-sincere-compliments didn't hurt, either.)
I am also a bit ambivalent about the Return of Jason, touched upon in that last meme entry. Haven't seen the guy in years, I think there was a bit of mutual attraction going even though we were never really friends (just in the same circles--we were both drama freaks--then he'd periodically turn up in strange contexts like seeing my best friend, whom he met in a bookstore), then he IM'ed me out of the blue. It is just odd the way this guy has kept popping up, apparently randomly--well, other than the IM, which was on an easily-located account at least. At any rate, I haven't had the opportunity to talk to him at any length--not that I'm that sure I want to at this point in time--so I'm not entirely sure why he decided to get in touch. I do have my suspicions, however, so I'm taking the "friendly but oblivious" approach. (It may not be nice to say, but damn the timing! Six months earlier, and my approach likely would have been different.)
Oh--thank goodness I've figured out most of the reason for my terrible mood the past few days. I started feeling far hotter than the weather warranted last night, and it didn't take a genius to figure out that it was some sort of virus coming on. Allergies have been bad enough that I still haven't noticed much besides the fever. Any sort of virus really messes with my mood, and it's surely been helping make me tired. A little perk of Native ancestry, it seems--catching every cold and flu that comes down the pike can keep things interesting. Ah well.
Sleep is probably a good idea. More aspirin will probably help with this. Goodnight/morning!
I do have a problem with throwing up artificial obstacles, especially when things seem important and perhaps a mite intimidating. Even when I can see that there are only so many courses of action, none of them generally so complicated, I can still manage to make things complicated. Persisting in doing this does not seem too wise. Nor does throwing away energy and making myself unhappy, worrying about things which even strike me as silly as I'm doing it. I did recognise these things already, but having someone tactfully point them out helped more than I'd have thought. Maybe it's as simple as reinforcement that my concerns are not, in fact, based in reality--if that makes any sense. I don't generally have trouble with distinguishing that sort of thing, but one does begin to wonder at times, under the influence of too much brooding. At any rate, she left me feeling much better.
Oh yes, on an unrelated note, Barry is back in town. I declined an invitation to go out last weekend. I must admit that it wasn't the easiest decision; I may be committed elsewhere, but I've been feeling a bit lonely, and he was good company in a strictly-for-fun sort of way. (The rather frequent handing-out-of-sincere-compliments didn't hurt, either.)
I am also a bit ambivalent about the Return of Jason, touched upon in that last meme entry. Haven't seen the guy in years, I think there was a bit of mutual attraction going even though we were never really friends (just in the same circles--we were both drama freaks--then he'd periodically turn up in strange contexts like seeing my best friend, whom he met in a bookstore), then he IM'ed me out of the blue. It is just odd the way this guy has kept popping up, apparently randomly--well, other than the IM, which was on an easily-located account at least. At any rate, I haven't had the opportunity to talk to him at any length--not that I'm that sure I want to at this point in time--so I'm not entirely sure why he decided to get in touch. I do have my suspicions, however, so I'm taking the "friendly but oblivious" approach. (It may not be nice to say, but damn the timing! Six months earlier, and my approach likely would have been different.)
Oh--thank goodness I've figured out most of the reason for my terrible mood the past few days. I started feeling far hotter than the weather warranted last night, and it didn't take a genius to figure out that it was some sort of virus coming on. Allergies have been bad enough that I still haven't noticed much besides the fever. Any sort of virus really messes with my mood, and it's surely been helping make me tired. A little perk of Native ancestry, it seems--catching every cold and flu that comes down the pike can keep things interesting. Ah well.
Sleep is probably a good idea. More aspirin will probably help with this. Goodnight/morning!