Mood

[urocyon]

On top of everything else, I've managed to get myself worried that I might be on an upswing, with my recently much-improved social life. This hasn't been a problem for me in past, but I know it can be for some people. It's hard to tell if I'm merely reacting to a long drought (particularly of men), or if something else might be going on. I've been extremely wary since my last big upswing a few years ago--I tried to ignore it until I went full-blown manic, and wound up saying some truly incredible things to a couple of friends. (Never did patch things up with one of them.) I cringe to think about how I was feeling and probably behaving at the end there. So I do have at least a semi-justified fear. I haven't really been noticing too many signs of it otherwise, so maybe I'm overreacting; it's really hard to tell.