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urocyonI'm in a strange mood tonight. Though I did go out earlier and have a great (if unusual) time in Blacksburg, one of my older demons has been trying to distract me all night. It's funny (and terribly aggravating) how some things persist.
A friend's post unsettled me when he pointed me to his LJ earlier this evening, and when I read it again just now. I made some half-appropriate noises, but I still don't know what to say, really--and it disturbs me that I still don't seem to have gained the proper perspective not to be gobsmacked by what starts happening in my own head in response to such stories. I feel terrible that I can't come up with anything particularly helpful to say, but do switch over into some odd self-focused train of thought instead of being helpful in any way. What can I say? Horrible parents really do suck, especially when they violate what tiny bit is left of your trust (and no matter how hard you try to be, there's still a smidgen there for them to crush). I'm sorry you've had to deal with all this. Yes, I can understand urges to track them down and do them harm; have had these myself, but it's not the best idea in the world. These sorts of thoughts will probably pop into your mind unexpectedly at least 17 years after you've seen or heard from them--don't know if it ever stops, really. But, I know you're strong enough to get through this latest thing too.
Not exactly the best possible thing to say, I think--but I can't see anything better, trite as every phrase of it is. If you're reading, B., I'm sorry I'm not handling this more appropriately, and very sorry if I've come across as self-centered. (And you can smack me if it sounded like I was blaming you for your post. *g*)
A friend's post unsettled me when he pointed me to his LJ earlier this evening, and when I read it again just now. I made some half-appropriate noises, but I still don't know what to say, really--and it disturbs me that I still don't seem to have gained the proper perspective not to be gobsmacked by what starts happening in my own head in response to such stories. I feel terrible that I can't come up with anything particularly helpful to say, but do switch over into some odd self-focused train of thought instead of being helpful in any way. What can I say? Horrible parents really do suck, especially when they violate what tiny bit is left of your trust (and no matter how hard you try to be, there's still a smidgen there for them to crush). I'm sorry you've had to deal with all this. Yes, I can understand urges to track them down and do them harm; have had these myself, but it's not the best idea in the world. These sorts of thoughts will probably pop into your mind unexpectedly at least 17 years after you've seen or heard from them--don't know if it ever stops, really. But, I know you're strong enough to get through this latest thing too.
Not exactly the best possible thing to say, I think--but I can't see anything better, trite as every phrase of it is. If you're reading, B., I'm sorry I'm not handling this more appropriately, and very sorry if I've come across as self-centered. (And you can smack me if it sounded like I was blaming you for your post. *g*)
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Date: 2003-04-04 07:04 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-04-04 03:30 pm (UTC)And now you're B.in more than one LJ. *g*
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Date: 2003-04-05 01:55 am (UTC)(take that as you like...)
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