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Jan. 9th, 2004 08:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
urocyonYippee! It looks like I'll be going back to the U.K. for a few weeks, beginning near the end of the month. :) Visits both ways had been discussed, but I have an eminently flexible schedule with no work to worry about taking off time, so that seemed the most feasible option. Though I still feel a tad uncomfortable--not wishing to create even the appearance of being mercenary or less than (near-pathologically) independent--![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
vatine was kind enough to offer to arrange tickets--and arrange them he did, this afternoon. *g*
Naturally, I'm extremely excited. :) I've been missing him so badly, and was not sure when we'd be able to see each other again. Even with these temporarily lower airfares, and my not being a spendthrift by any means, it would take me ages to swing another trip by myself. A decent bit, by my paltry income, has also been going toward paying back what I needed to borrow from family members for basic expenses (a necessity which elicited some pangs) once my CCDE-trip stay was ludicrously extended, as well; for those of you who remember my budget-cutting before the first trip, my lifestyle has remained reasonably Spartan since.
Some family--including those I still owe--and friends, have been vocal in telling me that I shouldn't feel bad about accepting the offer, since he obviously cares and hasn't interpreted it badly in any way. I tend to agree--intellectually, at least--but that pernicious little voice occasionally pipes up to let me know that I should be doing better and be entirely self-sufficient (particularly weird from a member of what is still a mainly-functioning tribal society), and that I don't deserve to be shown such good treatment/apparent love. I try to counter that voice's assertions--sometimes give it the good kicking it sorely deserves--whenever it pipes in, but it's hard to neutralise entirely. I seem to be keeping it under rather good control, though.
Overwhelmingly, I'm horribly pleased, and can barely wait until time to go!
vatine was kind enough to offer to arrange tickets--and arrange them he did, this afternoon. *g*Naturally, I'm extremely excited. :) I've been missing him so badly, and was not sure when we'd be able to see each other again. Even with these temporarily lower airfares, and my not being a spendthrift by any means, it would take me ages to swing another trip by myself. A decent bit, by my paltry income, has also been going toward paying back what I needed to borrow from family members for basic expenses (a necessity which elicited some pangs) once my CCDE-trip stay was ludicrously extended, as well; for those of you who remember my budget-cutting before the first trip, my lifestyle has remained reasonably Spartan since.
Some family--including those I still owe--and friends, have been vocal in telling me that I shouldn't feel bad about accepting the offer, since he obviously cares and hasn't interpreted it badly in any way. I tend to agree--intellectually, at least--but that pernicious little voice occasionally pipes up to let me know that I should be doing better and be entirely self-sufficient (particularly weird from a member of what is still a mainly-functioning tribal society), and that I don't deserve to be shown such good treatment/apparent love. I try to counter that voice's assertions--sometimes give it the good kicking it sorely deserves--whenever it pipes in, but it's hard to neutralise entirely. I seem to be keeping it under rather good control, though.
Overwhelmingly, I'm horribly pleased, and can barely wait until time to go!
