Infernal worrying

[urocyon]

I've managed to work myself up into quite a state of worry over the past few days, worse than usual, even. Trying to distract myself with petty stuff hasn't been helping much (this distraction attempt can probably be noticed in my recent posts)--I'm not even sure why I'm posting this, for that matter. Discussing one layer of the concerns with a friend didn't seem to help as much as usual, and I don't even feel comfortable talking about a couple of the more pressing ones. So I manage to worry, too, about the level of relief the Xanax I've been hitting pretty heavily the last couple of days brings, and have started avoiding taking more even though I've never had any hint of a chemical dependency problem. *wry smile*

Ah well...this can't last long, or rarely seems to. Anything I don't get worked out, there's not much I can do about anyway, so there's no sense in worrying like this.